I wish you knew things that I know now.
There's so much I have to tell you, advice, knowledge, what will be good, what will be bad, who will be there for you, who won't, what life will bring, what you will experience; the list is endless.
I don't even now where to start; I'm sorry for everything that I'm going to put you through, I don't mean it but I guess I can't control it now, because it's done and I can't change what was in the past, or your future I suppose, but I want you to know a few things, so hopefully you can change that and have a better future than I ever did.
First thing's first: Enjoy life. Enjoy everything, every living moment; enjoy nature, enjoy smiling, enjoy laughing, enjoy spending time with people around you, enjoy doing what you love, enjoy the fact you have free education, a roof over your head, clothes on your back and food on the table, enjoy that people love you, care about you, want to hug you, kiss you, laugh with you, and just be with you. Enjoy having free decisions, luxury, presents, books, family, friends and pets. Embrace the bad days, the loss, and stress. Embrace that you will experience bad things, bad people, and bad influences - it will make you a stronger person and make the good days even better. Don't take a second thought about anything, don't regret, don't waste time wishing that you could reverse something, don't wish about what you want to do, instead, just do what you want to do and enjoy doing it.
Secondly: Do not give a shit about other people and their opinions of you. People will be bitchy to you, forget about you, and talk about you - but you're not alone. It's just a part of life and almost everyone will experience this, but don't spend time running back to the people who left you; leave them instead. Everything will happen for a reason, but stick with the people who matter, people who remember your birthday, buy you presents, care about you, include you, invite you out, ask you over, laugh with you, hug you, smile at you, smile with you, and most importantly, love yourself for who you are. Don't change yourself for what others want or think of you, but appreciate who you are, appreciate all your flaws, your hair colour, your eyes, your ears, your nose, your lips, your teeth, your body, your laugh, your smile, your voice, your personality, your taste in music and fashion, your interests and your hobbies; everything about you is just how it should be, so forget everyone who believes your less than you are actually worth, which leads me onto my next point...
Thirdly: The media and social media are not real life; they're experts at playing games with people's conscience, but don't fall for their tricks. As hard as it may seem, don't believe anything you see out there, don't let the media influence your self image, self worth, self importance - you are no less than the printed image of a photoshopped model. Don't change who you are in reference to society's expectations, it is 100% unrealistic and 100% NOT you! You have so many gifts and talents that you can't see; you are the only you there will ever be, and ever has been, make the most of being YOU. Don't try to be anyone else, don't wish to be anyone else, don't wish to change yourself, because you are the way you are for a reason. No one will be or ever has been the same, that's the beauty of life! We all have our own flaws but that's what makes everyone imperfectly perfect. The media make us feel like that's not real, that there are people who don't have flaws, are naturally beautiful and slim, but it's all an illusion! The poses and works of computer technology have advanced to the point where some people aren't even recognisable!
Fourthly: Your weight doesn't define you. Nor does the size of your thighs and your stomach. Your weight doesn't tell you how happy you are today, what you have achieved, your personality, your interests, your ambitions; only your relationship with gravity! You can't change the fact you don't have a thigh gap, that's not in your genes! And that's the incredible thing about life, we all have a unique set of genes, therefore no one will ever be alike. Good, honest people will always love you for who you are, no matter what you look like, so don't believe otherwise. Being skinnier does not equal happier, trust me, (although I'm not skinny shaming here).
Lastly: YOU ARE CAPABLE OF SO MUCH. Ever since birth, you had potential, you can do what you dream, wish, hope, anything else you can call it, you CAN do it, you just have to have more confidence. As you grow older, 'you need more confidence' is a phrase that you will be sick to death of hearing - but it's true! You need to have more confidence, stop doubting, start believing! I've realised once growing older that you do have a lot of talent, but certain things, situations, will enhance those gifts and you will really see what you are capable of. Stop wishing and start doing, things will never happen if you frequently wait upon them; in life you have to go for your goals, before anyone else gets the chance to take them. Don't push people away, they are only helping you when they tell you to believe in yourself, because they too, know what you are capable of! Enjoy what you have, embrace the fact that you have so many talents and skills that you are able to show off! Not everyone is as lucky as that, but you are such a hard-working person, you deserve it!
This isn't a life lesson, it's just a letter for future reference; I want you to know what I wish I did then, because it will help you so much in life. I'm not saying that I know it all and now life will be fine and dandy for you, because life will still be stressful and tiring some days, but that is life and you can't alter what is natural to human existence! I want you to live by the things that I've written, go for your ambitions, don't let anyone stop you, you are capable, you are everything I've told you that you are, I promise.
Love from,
Asia, your future self x
I've got to say this is quite brilliant
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